frustration

since I don't have the ability to get my paints out i'll just spill then...

Why is it that so many people are so stinkin lazy these days? I don't understand how it goes through their mind, "oh, i'll just slide on by and let everyone else do stuff for me". RRRR. I was taught to work hard, to put my best in all that I do and to be proud of what I do. I feel like there are little to no people, younger than myself, that think that way. It drives me crazy. stinkin crazy. My kids will know the meaning of work and putting your best in what you do. I can guarantee it.

attaining branchness

John 15

The Vine and the Branches

1"I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes[a] so that it will be even more fruitful. 3You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. 4Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.
5"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. 6If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. 7If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. 8This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.

9"As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. 10If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in his love. 11I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. 12My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. 13Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. 14You are my friends if you do what I command. 15I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. 16You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit—fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. 17This is my command: Love each other.


What is it that makes me reluctant to living on the vine? I tend to live off of my own energy, work, church, people, events, activities, even my laziness at times. I cling to and live off of all these things that have no life in them and then I wonder why I feel so dry, tired and burnt out. The Vine is the Lord. Abiding and remaining in Him is all he asks, yet I make that one of the lowest things on the priority list thinking that if I get all these things done, accomplished, etc that it will make it easier to live on the Vine. Why is that? Why am I not just satisfied in Him, the Vine, the creator of life itself? My desire is to be so connected to the vine and His life giving nourishment that the things I find myself wrapped up in will slowly unwrap themselves and I will be solely attached to Him, not anything else....that He will be the core and the center of my life, guiding my decisions, showing me His will and His way in all things.

Dry & Bitter

I haven't painted since my last semester of college. I suppose it is because the last painting that I finished or even worked on has a lot of history and memories attached to it and I still avoid that part of my life and heart right now. So, as I think about a blank canvas, the possibilities abound. There is so much I could do with a blank canvas and yet I am almost afraid to approach it. It causes things to surface that I thought I had buried so well. I'm not bitter, at all. I'm over that. Some people don't know how to get through the bitterness. Dry though, yes. It is time to let go and be open to refreshment and fluidity. hopefully i'll end up with a piece of art that somehow quenches the thirst.

Abundant Life

Is the fullness in my heart that I have right now. Grace, redemption, love, the relationship with true believers, seeing God's plan unfold, growing out of doubt and growing into faith. THIS is abundant life. God's fullness bubbling over. My cup is overflowing. My life is in His hands. My heart is overjoyed that there has been made beauty from ashes.
simply satisfying, lovely and worth all the growing pains and hurting.
Praise God from whom all blessings flow...

Vacation Ramblings...

Well, we've been here in St. Louis since Sunday and it has been WONDERFUL!! We got here Sunday night and had some mexican food and good conversation with my father in law and stepmother in law. On Monday we just stayed in the house; slept in, watched TV, and just chilled out. We did get out once, for White Castle and a few groceries for the house. :) Tuesday we stayed in all day as well. In fact, we didn't leave the house all day, until about 8 and we went to Baskin Robbins for ice cream. :) So on Wednesday we decided to go to the Budweiser Brewery for a tour! It was really interesting and we had a great time together. We also enjoyed a free drink at the end of the tour. :) Then we decided to go to the St. Louis Cathedral Basilica. It is GORGEOUS!!! It is the largest collection of mosaic art work in the WORLD!! Every square inch of the place is either mosaic or marble. Just breathtaking. We could have just sat there and looked up, for hours. :) The weather has been BEAUTIFUL and it even RAINED last night. I hadn't heard thunder in forever!!!! It was a pretty rain and we enjoyed it. I think Bob and Carrie thought we were crazy. haha. We went to the St. Louis Zoo today and had a blast as well! They have a really neat collection of various animals! Even though we don't have kids we noticed how kid friendly it is and if you have kids and are in the area, you should definitely go. It is FREE and there are LOTS of neat things to see and do. There are a few things that cost money, but they are optional. Anyway, it was a fun time and now our feet are completely aching. :) We were going to try to make it to the Art Museum today, but ran out of time, so I think we are going to try to go Saturday when Carrie isn't working since she will enjoy it as well. Tomorrow we're sleeping in, chillin at home and then for dinner we are going out to The Bistro Restaurant for dinner and jazz music. That should be a fun time! :) Then on Saturday we are doing some more sleeping and resting, as well as going to the movies and the Art Museum. Then on Sunday we make our way back home... :) It has been such a wonderful time of just hanging out with each other!!!! I mean, we generally see each other for 5 minutes in the morning and then for a few hours in the evening. So, this has been very nice, just getting to spend time together. Love it!!!

Back to the normal pace next week, but until then, we still have 3 days. :) we'll soak it up!!

Vacation.

This time on Sunday I will be nestled into the in-law's home, ready for a full night's sleep. I am so ready to get up to St. Louis and relax and refuel for a week. I am excited to get to spend an entire week with my Nicholas and really get to relax together. I think I might even get to read a book, journal, design and sleep (very excited about that). I won't have to be concerned with work, dishes, laundry, more work, more work, cleaning, etc etc. We have also not seen Nick's dad and stepmom since our wedding day! So we are very excited to get to spend some time with them as well. It will be such a blessing to get to catch up with them and enjoy their company.

Please pray that we have a safe trip, with much rest, relaxation and fun times! :)

Credibility.

cred⋅i⋅ble   [kred-uh-buhl] Show IPA Pronunciation
–adjective
1. capable of being believed; believable: a credible statement.
2. worthy of belief or confidence; trustworthy: a credible witness.

Are you credible? Can people trust that you will do what you say you will do? Can people believe you when you speak with them? Are you worthy of someone's confidence or belief in your word? just something to think about. Whether you are a top leader in your company, a mother, a sister, a father, a brother, a friend, a co-worker, etc etc Do you say what you mean and mean what you say? Do you walk what you talk? It is something for all of us to think about. Something I have not thought about a whole lot until recently.