week 18 & 19

I missed week 18. I guess there was not much new to report, besides the craziness of our schedule... Things are just busy as ever. Week nights are full except for wednesdays. Weekends are always full. If I can get a saturday morning at home I soak it up, as well as the quiet. This morning I am at work for a few hours, which is good. It's been kind of busy, as always when we first open, we're hoping for a mild morning, nothing too crazy. Then we have an Art Party to work at 1:00. Worship practice for church is at 3:30 and then church is at 5:15. Dinner with mimi, pops, mom and dad, and the aunt and uncle this evening after church. Church again in the morning and then I have girls coming at 2:00 for facials at my house for mary kay. CRAZY. I guess that is why I went to bed at 7:30 thursday night for a "rest" but did not get up until friday morning. tired. The baby's room is not cleaned out yet. I reallly want to get that finished by monday, since we are supposed to find out on monday what this baby is. I'd like it to be cleared out and ready to decorate asap. :)
I still have not felt the baby a whole lot. I'd like to know for sure that he or she is moving around...of course in a month or so I will be wishing him or her to settle down a bit, so I wait. :)

I'm excited to find out who we are having, JRW or ARW. :) can't wait!!

Any guesses??

week 17

So, week 17 is I suppose, officially over...but I can't just skip a week. This week I think I shall dub the week of the breakdown. Yes, there were at least 3, count them, 3 breakdowns. good sized, hormonal, emotional, cryfests that were just exhausting, but I guess they are to be expected and were needed in a way. Good to get it all out and start over again on the faith building, trusting the Lord, believing he is good and has our best interests in mind...ya. God is gracious to me. He loves me where I am...in my unbelief, in my doubt, and he takes my mustard seed and moves mountains. I guess that is week 17 in a nutshell.
We find out on the 21st what this little bb is....I'm anxious to know! I am still waiting to feel that kick, that I know is a kick. I've felt some funny feelings and so I hope that is what I'm feeling, but I want to know for sure. :)

love,
shaina

week 16

Well, we are almost to the end of week 16 and I think I quite possibly felt our little baby moving in there....but I am not for sure. I mean, it's not like I have ever felt anything growing inside of me before, so I do not know what to feel other than what has been told to me. I am getting excited that in a matter of weeks we should be able to know what we are having. Our dr's appt is on Feb 21st and if he/she cooperates we will know. I feel as though things will start to move really fast after that point. It will be the half way point of the pregnancy, we'll be able to start decorating and registering and things will seem to move quickly I think.

My heart is to be able to stay at home with our little one and I believe with all of my heart that God is leading our family to that point. It is a matter of waiting and watching to see where God is going to move and work in order for that to be possible. We're praying and waiting. Actively at that. God is placing things in our life to help supplement and prepare, but Nick and I both feel that this is a matter of faith as well. Getting to this point has and as we surrendered our desires and our ways of trying to make things happen in our life, he provided and blessed. I know it is the same thing with this. I'm trusting.

Prayers for us are appreciated as we continue to trust, pray and prepare for all this newness that is about to bombard our life.

love,

shaina

week 15

this is day 1 of week 15 and the hormone bus has hit me once again. yay. I just love going from great to bad in a matter of minutes. I guess my mind gets to thinking too much and I start freaking out about all the stuff that is going to change, has changed and is changing, plus all of the other life changing things that go on with having a baby. Suppose I am just a bit overwhelmed tonight. One is never really ready for this. You can be as prepared as you possibly think you can and still be unprepared. I'm asking that the Lord just keep me going day to day right now and to help me not get caught up too bad in all the things that make me anxious. On that note, a few chores and bed are all that's left on the schedule tonight; that and some quiet time with Jesus. The one who can calm my anxiety. :)

Night all,

shaina

week 14

This is the middle of week 14 and I have felt a bit less energetic and spunky. haha. I have felt a bit slow and my mind is definitely dragging. I am not "on top" of things like I wish I could be or need to be. I am having to really think through things and fight to keep focused. Nick and I have been talking about the nursery and of course I thought I had it all planned out either way, but you know, I had to change my mind. We don't even know what this baby is yet and I have already changed my mind on the nursery theme or lack of theme, if it is a boy. haha. I am glad I am changing my mind before any money has been spent, etc. :)

I decided to finally put a sono up here. This is actually from 6 weeks....so 8 weeks later, I am sure this little one is quite a bit bigger than a poppyseed now. :) more like a lemon, but I know some of you who actually read this might enjoy a picture! no belly pictures yet. I still just look fat. hahaha

So there he or she is...at 6 weeks. Now that we are almost to 15 weeks, I just can't wait to get to see him/her again and possibly find out if it is a he/she. :) yay!!

I suppose there is not a whole lot to put on here right now other than I am a bit overwhelmed recently with all of the "stuff" one needs and some stuff that one doesn't need but wants when it comes to newborns. so so so much stuff. I guess I am going to have to get rid of more of my stuff around the house to make room for it all. :)

question for those mommies who read this: I was asked what bottles I will be using...ummm, I'm only 15 weeks barely and I have not yet even thought of what bottles to use...any suggestions??

thanks y'all!

shaina

week 13

Well, tomorrow ends week 13. Kind of crazy how time has flown and yet I feel like we are creeping by. Some great advice I received today was, "soak up everything about your first pregnancy. Not that the others aren't precious but they are not the same as the first." Sound advice and words that I want to take more seriously as I notice things flying by. I want to continue to be aware, soak up every moment, yes, good and bad. I want to not be so consumed with doing things to prepare that I totally miss out on the absolute blessing of it all as it unfolds.

So, I started a journal the week after we found out we were pregnant and have been fairly good to keep up with it until the last few weeks. I would love to catch up a bit in that and write down just the daily things that I would want him/her to have someday. It is for me now, but I know it will be special to him/her later.

Nick and I got a lot more done in cleaning out the extra room, soon to be nursery. I think we ended up just moving stuff from that room to other places or the garage, but it is not in that room, so it is progress. :) I will be happy to have things cleaned out and ready for whatever decor we go with. Lots to figure out before then though! I will post our ideas sometime soon.

For now, what cribs do any of y'all recommend for us? What did y'all use and what worked best for y'all? My parents are gracious and are excited to get us the crib for bb and I want to start doing some homework on them and get some advice! :) thanks!!

shaina

p.s. maternity pants seem to be the comfiest pants I have. besides my pj's. :)

12 weeks

well, week 12 ended and 13 has begun. I still have not felt sick this entire time, so I am thankful for that over and over. I do feel more energy and "alive-ness" I know that is not a word. haha. I just feel better and know that this will now be the time when I must get things accomplished. :) Things are going well on most ends of the life spectrum. Nothing outrageous has happened and the holidays are over, so we are happy! :) Not that the holidays were bad, but it is nice to settle back in to normalcy.

Mary Kay is so fun and I am enjoying it so far! Things are going right along and so I am confident that with my coaches and my inspiration growing inside of me, to stay home when he/she is born, I know I will succeed and enjoy the journey there! So far I have learned so much about myself, pushed myself, stretched myself and have really learned a lot about myself and how much having a baby is changing my work ethic, desires and heart.

Out of all of the things going on I desire to grow deeper in prayer and study with the Lord, yet keep failing in planning ahead, setting aside that special time and really digging in past deep. I am praying for a place I can settle into daily, to spend time with Jesus as I am going through so many spiritual, mental, emotional, and physical changes. My mind runs all day and my heart is growing bigger every day.

Question of the week for all you moms:

What is your favorite gadget or gizmo that has helped you with the first few months of mommyhood? :)

shaina